5 posts tagged “peace”

Some of the best most comfortable-in-their-skin people can not seem to be happy with themselves. It is bad enough that we have the sheeple that are raised to be unhappy with themselves. Yet on top of that we have people who preach acceptance, but yet don't practice it. While it is hard to practice what you preach, that depends on what you preach.

Over time I have learned to just say this is who I am. I suppose I'm ahead of my time since not only was it a decision I made based on true self acceptance, but it was also because it's just too tiring to be anything else. The latter being why I'm ahead of my time. Usually it takes people far more decades of living to get tired of being something they aren't.

It's a lot like sucking in your stomach when you're around someone you like. After awhile you're going to have to stop sucking it in and let them see you've got a belly. I guess a lot of people have good abs to keep that up for a long time. I can only do it so long to take one or two snapshots. Hah! Much like living that same facade.
 
I'm also more comfortable being myself because I know that I will have love and acceptance from others no matter what I present. It doesn't matter who you are, how you act or what you look like; you will find someone to love you (friends and more). The problem is sometimes the people you wish would love you would not love you for who you really are. But that's no fun anyway. That's a great key to unhappiness. Knowing everyone around you loves you for what you present, but that it's not who you are at all. If you can't let someone love who you really are then how can you love yourself? Not well, that's for sure. You should ask yourself why you want certain people to love you. It's usually not about love but power. Power over others or power over yourself. When someone you love loves you that gives you incredible strength to easily accept things.

When I was in high school I tried my hardest to be accepted by the popular crowd. It was an impossible endeavor. Smart people can rarely fit into the dumbfounded popular crowd. It's like plugging a three-prong plug into a two-prong outlet, sooner or later it's clearly not happening. But in my endeavor to push myself into the popular crowd I pushed away all the other people who did accept me. If I couldn't have what I wanted then I'd have no one. And that was not the path to happiness or self-acceptance.

I'm happy with me. And I'll tell you that the key to that being an honest statement is I found my self-acceptance and happiness on my own. No one came around to make me happy with myself first. I was alone and found peace with me. Too many people need others first before they accept themselves. Find acceptance from others and then you can be sure if you can or can not accept yourself? That's a horrible way of thinking. It's good to have some support, but it's important to remember you are on this planet on your own. You will be the only person that you live with the longest. Learn to get along.

While my friends and loved ones have been with me for the most part through that transformation, it was I who learned to live happily with myself. I did not have "real friends" until I began being the real me. The more real I became the more friends I got. The more real love I found helped me see I was pretty cool just the way I was. Even if I didn't fit in the three-pronged plug. I did not find warm love from others until I truly found it within myself. Things get better as you progress along learning about who you really are versus who you were told to be.

It's really not as scary as it sounds. It's okay. You can come out from under the bed now.

Desert Flower

I noticed someone mention the year 2012 and "the great shift." Not wanting to look too foolish (since I am supposed to be so hippie enlightened and should probably already know) I ran off to Wikipedia to see what I may be missing.

Generally I suppose the gist is that some people feel in the year 2012 a great shift in mentality will occur. And a large amount of people will change the world for the better, while stupid hypocrites running our current broken systems will just fade away. It was interesting looking at both the predicted and factual events that are supposed to happen in 2012. All very change worthy events and anniversaries of things. Lots of planetary activity. It would be an interesting year, great shift or not.

What I've noticed is a great shift this season. So many people are waking up to change their lives on a personal basis and even on a larger scale. It could be a touch of hopefulness within me that makes it seem like more people than it is. But I don't think so. There's just this great awakening in so many of us to find where we belong on a sort of spiritual cosmic level.

Even within myself there are great changes being made. And I'm one of those people who felt their shit was already together. It wasn't in the slightest. While trying to collect myself into an appropriate pile on this planet I had ironically lost myself. The who am I was temporarily put to the side and slowly got buried under lots of things that didn't matter anymore. Now I'm finding me again. Finding who I really am and what really matters. I'm trying to feed my mind as quick as I can. I want to get to the level I need to be at. I've changed so much in such a short time. Of course I was in a cocoon of depression for so long which could be considered a growing state, so perhaps I've been changing very slowly for a very long time.

Things are different now. I'm getting the connection to the universe back. I'm meditating in deserts and talking to lizards, for crying out loud. Things are changing. With all of us. It must be very important right at this time in "the big picture" to have the wise people wake up. So many of them are. They're finding their voices again by finding their souls.

I was talking to someone about meditation and the quiet that can only be found in the desert. They have yet to experience it and said that a friend of theirs mentioned that, "the silence is so scary in the middle of the desert." I went on to tell him how beautiful I thought it was. Not scary.

This reminds me of how disturbed I am over people in the quiet desert areas. I'm talking about the places you can go where there's not a soul around. The places an hour away in the middle of nowhere. People don't live there and you'd hardly be lucky to even see an animal. The places that some tourists go for the cheap thrill of "seeing nature as it is." When I go to these places and they are filled with tourists hiking about I am always amazed at how they are acting. They have their IPODS or their children with them. Even people who are alone usually hum to themselves. Whatever they're doing is making a lot of noise. They can't be quiet.

I think that is a major problem with people today. So few people can't shut their mouths for a bloody second! The root of our confusion is the simplest thing. I've heard that sometimes the simplest explanation is the right one. In this case I am quiet certain that the simplest thing is a great problem solver for these high octane culture's (like ours). That being meditation. Silence. Nature. Until I spoke with this friend who was scared of desert silence I never really thought about how many people are scared of it. I don't think most people could handle it. And that's an earth shattering idea. What have people become if they can not sit in silence and know that they are hearing nothing? Not nothing but hearing their inner selves. I think that is what freaks them out into being loud. They've never heard their soul without interference.

Then just now as Greg the Monkey was making me think about people in general. I made the statement that I'm not even sure if most people would recognize their own decision if they made one. What I mean is I don't think most people (those we may refer to as "sheeple") really make their own decisions anymore. When was the last time a "normal person" did something major that wasn't pushed upon them by a book, a rule or a news report? Every decision they make is really heavily influenced by something or someone else. And when it is their own idea, by the time it gets out of their heads it has been filtered like water through a coffee filter.

So here we have, in my not humble at all opinion, several intelligent countries filled with people who have never heard silence and probably very rarely ever made a decision that came directly out of their head without any influence from their peers. I'd say that one leads to the other. If you had silence and found your connection to the Universe, perhaps your head would clear and you'd see something besides what is in front of our faces.

Silence is good. It's not the silence you hear when you lock yourself in the closet. It is not the silence a prison provides. It's silence you hear when all there is to hear is air and gravel or grass shifting under you. It's the silence you get when you're temporarily free of everything that is holding your spirit down. When the only person you can see around you is yourself. And it's what you do with that silence when you get it that matters. Do you pray? Do you chant? Do you remain silent? Our inner truths are buried within and can only be brought out when you are left with yourself and nothing to do but focus.

Find your center in your silence. I took this picture while I was meditating in the desert. It is a lizard that struck up a conversation. He was comfortable enough to let me take his picture. You should talk to the lizards. That helps too.

Lizard Lizard

An absolutely incredible documentary on the truth of 911. You ALL should watch it here: http://www.loosechange911.com.  It is long. It's a complete documentary (and you can see it for free on that site). But it's worth watching. I watched the entire thing.

I didn't believe the conspiracy theories up to this point because I couldn't believe that people can be this smart. Humans are stupid critters. I don't think they can carry out lengthy conspiracy theories. I don't think that they can overcome the guilt within themselves to keep quite while the government murders us. However, I can now after seeing this. It's that convincing. It's that real and that scary. That good. It makes complete sense to me. Of course some of it may waver between fact and possible fiction but only for a second, if that. For the most part everything was laid out in a factual way. I honestly think the only conclusions I drew were mine and not particularly theirs. Especially watching those buildings fall. It just makes me think, you know, that really is peculiar.

It just makes sense. And it makes me sick. Because yeah, I believe it, but will this change the rapturous course of history these gangsters have set us on? We will all try, but will it ever work? Will we be doomed because most humans are stupid critters and the smart ones have seemingly screwed everyone over in a rather stupidly ingenious way?

I think the most important key to a good mindset is becoming truly humble.

hum·ble   (hmbl)
adj. hum·bler, hum·blest

1. Marked by meekness or modesty in behavior, attitude, or spirit; not arrogant or prideful.

There is a fine line between being prideful and being arrogant. I have come to learn that the most pridefully humble people have got a lot more substance to their lives. It's important to know what we have and who we are, but not to be arrogant about it. You should know you are beautiful, but not attractive to everyone. It's nice to be aware of your financial situation but important not to think you're king of the hill. Probably the most important time to be humble is with your intentions and opinions.

I have changed a lot over the past couple of years. I was so very arrogant before. It was justified at the time. There is a time for everything after all. It's quite an amazing occurrence when an already open minded person finds more ways to become open minded. The moment your open mind knows it all is when it becomes closed minded. I have always tried my best to conquer all thoughts and ideas, as to try to get on top of things. There's always more to learn about an issue, so if you are truly open minded you'll never stop trying to expand your head about it. Knowing that should keep you humble and very open to everyone's take on whatever it may be.

There's a lot of equality I feel for things lately. I see as many flaws in Democrats as I do in Republicans. I don't mind a person with religion in their life. Even though it still exasperates me greatly. I'm learning to subscribe to the "do what you must as long as you don't hurt anybody else" method of existence. I think it's the only way we're going to survive in the coming decades. We have to learn to live with each other again. We have to remember why fences were invented - to keep your own party in your own back yard.

In a lot of ways I feel like a simpler person. I'm starting to learn the dynamics of reality. I tend to do things backwards. I was a woman before I acknowledged that I was a man. I can't write a book until I design the cover. I record sound tracks to movies before I even write the movie. I was gay before I was straight (for a moment). I was fortunate to be rich before I was poor. The list goes on and ultimately I learned of the way things should be before I learned the way things are and have to be. The dynamics of reality are very new to me while most people learn them first and then slowly slip into that Twilight Zone "how things should be" mind set.

I've only just begun to learn how to socialize with people. I'm learning what a true friend looks like and who an acquaintance should be. I'm learning not to jeopardize my sanity for people who wouldn't jeopardize theirs for me. All in all I feel very lucky to have been born mentally backwards. It was important for my life to go this way. I'm a better person because of it.